I had an appointment with Dustin's psychiatrist this week. He said something I would like to remember so where else should I put it but here . . .
"He looks good, more peaceful than I have ever seen him. He no longer looks soul-less."
We increased his Lithium last month and it has truly helped. It was nice knowing he could see this too. Then, he gave me some advice about something we had been struggling with. It was not what I wanted to hear, but it was heartfelt and truthful. I love that man.
Unrelated topic . . . When we were in Georgia, I had a discussion with Lisa bout food issues. She told me that J used to eat like Dustin does. He never feels full so he is ALWAYS hungry. Jordan was talking to Dustin and said something about being filled up with love not food. Dustin barely acknowledged her and I knew that was beyond his comprehension at the time. Oddly enough, I was thinking about Dustin's eating habits since vacation and realized he is not over eating. He is rarely complaining about hunger, and when he does, he eats something "normal" and seems satisfied. Could it be and unconscious acceptance of what J said? Or is it simply a phase? We shall see. . . whatever it is, I like it.
One year since he's been gone.
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