Ever have one of those days. Days when you are challenged to your core? I'm not talking challenging behaviors here, we all have those, I am talking about something that challenges a belief you held to firmly. A belief that you thought was at a core belief of your belief system.
I woke up this morning the same person I have been. One phone call changed that.
Let me clarify. Nothing mysterious or life altering happened to me physically. Nothing has changed my faith in God. Nothing has affected my family.
However, that phone call changed my beliefs. Now, of course, I cannot divulge the nature of that call without breaking confidence but I suppose that is not the issue here. I suppose what I am trying to convey is that you cannot wholly understand someone else's choices until you have lived them. This conversation has given me a whole new appreciation of judgement and specifically judging other's choices. I get it. I finally understand something I have struggled with and JUDGED others for for years. I have said I would NEVER make that choice and I can finally say I WOULD. I know now there are times when sometimes NEVER is not an option. Someone was put in that NEVER situation and through their words I understood.
I feel like I have been given a blessing. I feel like I grew YEARS in that hour conversation. While this lovely friend went through hell (and still is), and for that I am sorry, I am thankful that I have been given a lesson from it. I have been horribly judgmental of others in situations that have been similar. I have no place to judge. I don't know everything. I have not lived in their shoes. This friend shared this information with me knowing what I have said in the past. They are truly a HERO, not only for living it, but being willing to be REAL and telling her story.
Thank you dear friend. Thank you for changing me. Thank you for humbling me and making me understand yet again that I don't have all the answers. Thank you for what you do daily to touch others. I am thankful you are you. I pray for peace. I pray for healing.
Down to the River
8 hours ago