Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Catching you unaware . . .

A while ago, I read a post over at Adventures with Toots and Noodles about her crying over something that reminded her of her father who recently passed away. She had heard a commercial for a Christmas toy truck from the company that her father worked for. Her father used to purchase one every year for her son. She talked about the emotions that hit her and she cried in the car. She asked if this is the kind of thing that happens.

It has been 11 years since my father passed. Occassionally I get teary when I think about my children birthdays or Christmas traditions that my father will never be able to be a part of. I smile when I hear certain songs he liked on the radio and think about times we sang them together. It weird the things you remember. I vividly remember singing "(Don't Fear) The Reaper" by Blue Oyster Cult in dads car going home from Sam's Club one night. (I told you it was weird) Whenver I hear that song I am taken back to that road on that night in his red Berretta Z26, singing BOC with dad.

This weekend I was sitting in my sister-in-laws living room in Kentucky and I saw something that made me weep. Lotion. My dad always had a bottle od Cornhuskers Lotion in his side of the headboard. A bottle of lotion made me cry. I think Teresa thought I was nuts. So yeah, this like this happen.

1 comment:

Angie said...

I can so relate to this. My dad's been gone 29 years and I was just crying yesterday when I heard a Christmas song by Elvis on the radio. My mom's been gone 5 and the same thing happens. The last thing that made me cry about my mom was the Ohio State vs. Michigan football game. The rivalry of this game day was like a national holiday in my house when I was growing up.

So, no I don't think the "triggers" ever go away and some of them are definetly things you'd never dream would be a trigger, oh like say my insurance bill arriving in the mail... After dealing with this most of my life, I've learned to care less what other people think of my tears. I just figure I will never love my parents any less than I do, no matter how long they've been gone, so why shouldn't I feel the grief of missing them every now and then? It's obvious you love your father very much.