Monday, February 09, 2009

My grandma made it through surgery. She lost all her large intestine and part of her small one. She is extremely septic and is on a ventilator. Her wishes are not to be kept on a ventilator long term. She only wants 72 hours. The doctor wants at least a week, but he will honor her wishes for 72 hours. She looks awful. The family is considering giving it more than 72 hours depending on how things look at that time.

I am done. I cannot do this. It is too hard and I am not strong enough. I cannot take care of the two littles, and Dustin who is in full-tilt-overboard-crazy-behavior-mode and Robert, while juggling work and the hospital visits, laundry, dishes, and showering. I am stressed to Stretch Armstrong proportions. I had a big slobbery, sobbig, ugly cry tonight. That was good.

I have heard the obligatory, "God will not give you more than you can handle" speech today a couple times. Well, I think God has grossly over-estimated my abilities. I am beyond my limits.

7 comments:

Torina said...

I HATE that saying. It is total bullshit. Sometimes, the burden is too big to bear and you just need a rest. Good grief. I hope you get a break. I wish I lived closer, Sheri. I really do. This just sucks.

Eos said...

It's too much too fast...I'm just hoping that all this passes faster than not...that one way or another it gets resolved...hang in there..do some nice little things for yourself or steal time away (even if you have to lock yourself in the bathroom)every now and then..whatever you have to do to weather the storm. Hugs.

Jo said...

WAY too much on your plate. I wish I had something useful or helpful to add. Prayers for strength.

Essie the Accidental Mommy said...

oh no, that is terrible. Please holler if there is any way to help you out.

Lisa said...

How I wish I lived closer! Dang it. I'd love to swoop in and give you a break and a hug. Then poof! Like magic all would be right with the world. (I can dream) ;-)

I hate that saying too.

FAScinated said...

I'm sorry, Sheri. I wish I could do something to help in a hands on way but I am sending prayers.

Sheri said...

Thanks Ladies!

It amazing what a new day can do for your spirits along with kind words from my bloggy-friends . . . and a VAT of coffee!