Well, here goes. . .
Friday afternoon we headed out to a "celebration of life" for my grandmother. Robert really wanted to come and I was thankful. Problem was, the place was not handicap accessible at all. He did lots of steps and hopping. It aggravated his hip and he spent Friday night and all day Saturday in a ton of pain. I feel like we took 3 steps backward. *sigh* I did get out into the backyard and cleaned up about 12 weeks of dog poop which was strangely cathartic. . .
Dustin and I spent Saturday running some errands and he was pretty well behaved. As long as I kept him away from the kids, he did well. As soon as I put him in a situation within 2 feet from the kids, he went bonkers! Do you know how hard it is to find an electric blanket this time of year? It is nearly impossible.
Today I had some more errands to do and once again, even though I really needed a break from Dustin (man, that sounds so horrible) I took him again. He was REALLY well behaved and helpful, thank goodness. As soon as we walked back in the door, he started in right away with the littles. Holy Mercy! He knows I can only do so many things at a time, and knows he can irritate them until I get to him. I am so at my limit.
We have 6 weeks more weeks of this "absolutely no walking" malarky. It is the hardest thing I have ever done and I am so over it. The stress is really wearing on me and my headaches have returned. I have suffered from migraines since I was 8 years old and I have had them under control for about 4 years. The meds aren't working completely right now because I am a big ol' ball of nerves. I also have some things going on that I am perseverating over and that is stressing me out that I cannot blog about. Aaaaaahhhhhh!
I want to find a hole and crawl into it until spring. . .
ugh, Tara antagonizes the boys nonstop, so I feel for you. It is so irritating and relentless. I hope you find something for your migraines. I only get one about once a year and that is way too often for me. Someone once told me that when you feel one coming on, if you eat a hot chili pepper, that will help. Could be an old wives tale, I have no idea.
ReplyDeleteI hope that you are able to take some moments for yourself to enjoy some peace and solitude.
ReplyDeleteIf you feel one coming on (my husband says he has a window of time where he feels certain symptoms like blurred vision, sensitivity to smells, etc before the full blown migraine hits....not sure if this is the same for you though) sumatriptan-naproxen (already a common migraine drug) can help...thing is...you'd have to take it within an hour or so BEFORE which is really really hard if your pre-migraine symptoms are not clear.
ReplyDeleteMost migraine meds affects my husband adversely (he's sensitive to many meds) so he usually just suffers through them but thought I'd throw it out there in case you could stave yours off.
I felt like a bad mom too, being very happy that school winter vacation is OVER! The kids just could not get along for five seconds these past few days. At least Dustin behaves while alone with you.
ReplyDeleteYou are not a bad mom for needing a break. And really, the fact you are not locked up in a looney bin right now is a testament to your inner strength.
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